Brain vs Heart
There’s a battle going: brain vs. heart Swaroop is confused.
He has no idea regarding what to do now. After
going through various stages, after making several firm decisions; he still
lacks the idea regarding where next to step.
It was three years ago, when Swaroop purposed Nanu after
knowing her for a year .friendship moved to best friend and Nanu finally
accepted Swaroop after three months of his proposal with the fear that she might
lose him. Beginning of 2007 they got into relation for the first time. Both
were excited and nervous at the same
time. Swaroop had a long vision almost till their death .yes; it was the same
as most of the other couples today have...Studies, marriage, honeymoon,
children and again their names, future e.t.c.
The fresh relation was again gifted by February: the season
of love. It was definitely somewhat to be in relation while being in their teens.
Dating then came up with “limited romance” they wanted to study together as
they were from different colleges .so they joined tuition classes .the relation
was moving ahead .both really loved each other.
Swaroop was a jealous guy. he never wanted Nanu to talk with
any other guys nor did he allowed her to wear miniskirts also Nanu never went against
his wishes and he also implemented that in himself . This didn’t ever gave Nanu
to suspect on him .Swaroop was an average student ,and Nanu was somewhat below
average, and she was always suggested to study hard .
“You must study hard at least for me and for our future”
“I am trying, but I really don’t understand final accounts”
“Maybe I can help you! I have got exams ….but still can you
meet me at library today?”
“It’s difficult, my family already doubts on me….but still
I’ll try to come”
“I’ll be waiting for you this noon hai?”
Swaroop spent his studying time for her studies as well, and
he cared for her equally.
“You didn’t go to college today?”
“Yap I wasn’t feeling well today “
“Hey! What happened?”
“It was the first day of periods and I had huge stomach
pain”
“I don’t understand girl’s problem….but take proper care and
cover your missed classes”
And the time was moving, when the board of eleven came and
went .they even celebrated their anniversary with the confusion whether to
regard proposal date or acceptance date. The day was disappointing when Nanu failed
in the board exam of eleven and Swaroop just managed to step on the first
division. Swaroop’s disappointment and motivating words compelled Nanu to grow
serious and study better. And then grade twelve went perfectly for them with
various angerness. Swaroop was really stupid as he tried to take over his girl
.he never allowed Nanu to do things he didn’t liked and Nanu never allowed him
to smoke either, everything was fine till the end of their twelfth grade.
After twelve, they had to go through “distance relation” as
Swaroop had to go far from her. Everything was fine till then. Because Nanu had
given her words to be there some time later. They had to go through various
stages in giving equal respect to distance relationship. Later Nanu reached
Delhi and both were together again.
But within few weeks Nanu had to suffer home sickness and
she had to return back. And college would not readmit her as she missed a month
of her class. She lost a year, Swaroop always gave her ways of utilizing her
time by doing guitar classes, or vocal or computer classes...But no one knows
what appened to her she ignored his words and started raising questions to him,
day by day distance between them grew and time and again they started having
rows and dissatisfaction grew between them. But they couldn’t do anything
either even in those stages Swaroop used to call her and ask her if he could
drink amidst his friends in any parties he went….she told him to stay in limit
even if he had to drink...
Nanu also asked him if she could have a haircut” you like me
in this hair cut but my sister is compelling me to have a haircut ….what to do?”
“Yea it’s for sure been long and seems like ends are getting
frizzy”
Since the relation was getting weak, they couldn’t even
manage to celebrate their third anniversary. For simple reasons they quarreled and
broke up within an hour. Both were confident that they will again be together
within few days as they had similar experiences before as well. Two day’s later
Swaroop tried to call Nanu, but her cell was switched off as well and then Nanu
tried to call and again Swaroop’s cell was off. Both wanted to say sorry but
luck didn’t favor them and ten days later they finally realized that they had
seriously broken up.
Swaroop then changed. he thought love doesn’t exist .he used
to say “children love their parents with the greed of getting their care, friends
love with the hope to get support, spouse love his or her partner to share
things and body and hence there doesn’t exist anything called love in real” he
was trying to forget her. Although both study at Delhi today but they don’t
talk, meet or even care though. They still have affection for each other. Both
still respect each other but fear to talk as well.
Six months of breakup, Swaroop ultimately realized he is
getting close with Rani and found out he shared a lot of feelings with her. He
never calls Nanu a betrayer .after telling entire story with tears he asks Rani,
but she could not give satisfactory answer as well. His vision regarding love
is again changed...He has started loving Rani...but with the fear of past he
could not manage to propose her and Rani as well says she needs time for
relationship. Swaroop has no idea regarding Rani’s feeling, her vision but the
battle between brain and heart goes on within Swaroop “Are you again trying to
be fool after a girl?” asks brain
“You need someone after all” says heart
“Will you be able to keep her happy? Or will it be like
Nanu’s case?” asks brain
“Leave it in the hand of time; go with Rani” says heart
“Again quarrel, pains…are you ready?” asks brain
“You are capable to manage it and Rani is of your type”
answers heart.
“What if you broke up with her again? It is better to be
friends than to end it with her like that with Nanu...”says brain
Again brain asks” you betrayed Nanu, can you guarantee that
you can cope with Rani?”
Heart replies “you still respect Nanu and you have not betrayed,
you broke up with mutual understanding”
“Whatever! You left her” says brain
“Does that mean that you should never search a girl for you?
Are you going to spend your life all alone? Asks heart and the discussion goes
on between heart and brain. Swaroop could not make a decision.
